Day 1.3 : I think I'm blushing.

I was relieved. Eventhough what he replied is somewhat annoying to my perspective but deep down I knew he still think of me as a friend. I didn't lose him afterall.

We playfully texted each other for awhile, well, sort of.

"Yea. I actually knew it for quite some time now. Hehee :)"
"You bitch! What do you mean you knew for quite some time?! Are you trying to mess with me?"
"Haha no.. Of course not. But hey, why are you so sure that I only want us to remain as friends? Didn't you thought that maybe...I like you too?"

At this I was confused. What does he mean now? Didn't he say of course we can continue be friends? Wait a minute, why am I thinking like this?! I thought I just wanted to confess.. What does he want now?

Rather than just think and do nothing about it, why don't I just ask him.

"I didn't really thought of it actually. Sometimes you are close and then you are far. I knew I like you but I don't know if you err.. Like me too? I don't know what are we anymore.."

I send that to him and wait for his reply. He will reply right?

The wait is killing me. Well, I need to get used to this.

My phone vibrates and the incoming message ringtone starts to play."Oh my god! Should I read it now? Maybe later?"

But I knew I would have need to face it so it's better to read it and face it now. Nervously I click the view button.

I couldn't believe it, what I just read. Rillakuma.. He wants to be my boyfriend. He actually said, "Let's date!"

I didn't see my face that time but I felt my temperature rising. I think I'm blushing...

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Blushing.. Oh, now I remember. I did blush because of him before. When was it again I wonder..? Another awkward memory involving him. :)

It was an accident to be specific. I couldn't remember the front part clearly. But, when he was pointing at me and because the seating in the tuition class is so close, he accidentally touched my lips.

I was shocked and went red almost instantly. Rillakuma is embarrassed for accidentally touching my lips and quickly remove his finger.

He apologize in the calmest way he could. But is it weird that I see his ears went red? He is...blushing? I secretly smiled and good thing I was seating at the back so he didn't notice.

We became topic of the day because of that incident. But it eventually went away. You know, gossips went by swiftly like wind when new topic pops out.

We slowly forget what had happened and continue being the two psychotic art friends. But, a few months later a friend, Chiki, she brought up the issue again. And worst, it was when we are playing a game called, True or Dare in school with our other two close friends.

She asked me what happened that day that he did touched my lips? The other two friends, Kiki and Lala who didn't knew what happened look at me with their bright shiny eyes, excited with what I am about to answer.

I took a deep breath and start explaining. I don't know why either. When I reached the part where Rillakuma accidentally touched my lips, I suddenly blushed again.

For the whole day, Kiki, Lala and Chiki mocked me about it. It is embarrassing and because Kiki has asked such question, I couldn't forget it anymore.

I wonder if he remembers...

Chapter 2: Luck is on my side.

I was still looking at him until one of the guy came and talk to me, "let me introduce you to my friends" At first I was kind of freak out if he saw me staring at that 'charming guy' LOL. but he didn't see that. So the guy, or we can call him Taylor drag me to his friends, and turns out, Mr. Prince Charming is also among his group. My face is as red as tomato, I'm so shy and also excited in the same time to meet him. He introduced himself and shook my hand, he have a tight grip on my hand, and his palm is not soft like how most of the guy I've shook before. Then, he introduce himself as Abraham and I also introduced myself.

Later, the lecturer for the current class entered. As he introduced himself, he also mention that he's from India. "Any of you want to know about this country, don't ask me, you can ask the girl at the back", as he pointed at me. Immediately I became the celebrity of the class. As the class ends, everyone of them want to come and greet me. As i see my Prince Charming walks away, deep in me, I really want to get to know him.

In the evening, there's another class. Believe me when I say, I'm the kind of person who don't wear make-up, but I starting to wear them in a minimum amount, but still! I put on a natural color lipstick and some light lining of eye liner,  just to get noticed by him. Unfortunately, I didn't get the chance to get close to him, too many people came and talk to me. So, I motivated myself, " there's always tomorrow".

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As I walk home from my school, my hand phone rang. Out of annoyance, I picked the call. "how are you baby?"  Urgh! It's my annoying ex, who cheated on me and have the nerves to call me!

"what do you want now?"

"just called to say hi"

"alright then, hi and bye!"

I ended the call, but he called back. "Babe, I'm really missing you. Why are you behaving like this? Don't you like me no more?"

"look, if you call me just to annoy me, forget it!"

As soon as i said so, he started to cry. Yes, he cried!

"babe, i cant live with out you, you're the love of my life"

"you should think so before you cheated on me, not once but twice!"

"no babe, It was a.."

The line cut. Maybe his credit finished. "Good, at least I'm at peace now".

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The next day, I went to class too early, when I say early, I really meant so. Class starting at 8, but i was in front of the class since 7.15! Being to excited is good at some point I guess. As I await my Prince Charming to come, I was trying to think of the best way to have his number, I don't know how many pick up line have I rejected in my mind, neither any normal sentence. This is the first time I'm behaving so.

Around 7.50, I saw him climbing up the staircase. I was walking towards the stairs to approach him and suddenly one student stopped me, and starting to talk to me. His name is Simpson (he kind of have the same hairstyle with The Simpson). As he introduced himself, in the same time my courage went from 70% to 0%.

As i watched him took his seat at the last row, I took my seat at the 2nd row, as Simpson also came and followed me. At the time Simpson was busy with his friends, I snap a selfie of me using the front camera of my phone, and coincidently I caught Abraham in the camera too! I was very happy, and i should repeat this step for me to get his clear picture :D

As I pretend to take my own picture, I manage to snap some good angles picture, him smiling, laughing and also him hiding his face. So cute! And when i continued to snap, suddenly his eyes was looking at m direction! I freak out, and I pretend to be messaging. He stood up, and walks closer and closer to me and he stops beside me. Trust me, I would just run away. He looked at me and he ask, "Hey, what's up? Do you want to join my group for the test later?"

I felt relive and I replied him that I'll join them, that I'll come in a while time. He smiled and went away. Simpson came to me and asked me something, which I didn't hear because the class was too noisy.

"what did he just ask?"

Chapter 1: How did i came here ?

OK, it's April now, and yet no answer from any other university besides this one university, which collaborates with international university or also known as Phoenix College, I can't even think of any other solution; should i accept the university, or should I just join the military?

After touring Phoenix College, my parent agreed to school me here, since their facilities are close by, and the distance from the place I'm about to stay and school is just 5 minute walk

The next week itself, I've started to attend their orientation, which supposedly I should attend for a month, but they say its ok, if i attend it for just 4 days. Plus, the day I entered the hall is the day I took IELTS!

 First, we need to do listening test, where the moderator will read some question and we need to answer on the answer sheets. Next is writing test, and lastly speaking test. The best part of being me, quite a number of my people are not fluent in English, so the moderator will ask lots of question to makes you sweating like a whore in church, LOL .. As for me, I faked my accent to British accent and with the face of full confident, I spoke to them. We need to introduce our self as detail as possible for them to catch on some details for interruptive question, n yes, they did for me too. Average student will be seating with them for around 10 minute, and me, it doesn't take up to 3 minute. The conversation goes like this;

Moderator: Tell me about yourself.

me: MY name is Niza, I'm from Cheras, Selangor.

Moderator: How do you find living in a city and here, a rural site?

Me: I don't find any differences since the place I live is almost similar as to here.

Moderator: OK, thank you.

Me ~blur~ (" that's all?? like seriously??? ")

Moderator: Miss, you may leave.

Imagine the reactions of the people who saw that incident. They're all surprised include the student who been questioned before me, which she is also my room mate.

 For the weekend, I went back to my house, to be with my kittens :3 As I missed them so much..

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It took a week from the day IELTS was released to calculate the score and shows the result on board. The calculation goes like this;

band 6.0 and above: can apply degree

Band 6.0 and below: diploma.

My result was expected for me to get above 6.0, so after i seen my result, i need to go to the school office to re-confirm my subject and also to collect the time table.

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I'm in front of my class door, feeling nervous and my knees are shaking. I should expecting quite a number of international student in class. As I open the door, I got more nervous, as all the class student was male and all of them international student! I was alone Malaysian and also the only female :( So I sat at one corner, at the last row, and edge at the corner of the class. All of them looked at me, and one of them came n greeted me. I replied him but awkwardly, LOL.

As I was looking everywhere blankly, the class door was opened, " someone is coming ", and I saw a chocolate tanned guy, who entered with a smile. I was stunned by him, and I kept on looking at him.

 " Wow, so now Malaysia have a Chris Brown ".

I was still looking at him until he seat his place at the other corner. He have hazel-brown eye, which is very bright and looks cute on him, bright pink lips, as though he has gloss on him. he have brown hair, and also he's athletic figure, with kind of heavy muscle.He seems taller than me by few inch.

" should I talk to him, or should I wait, because I know at one point he'll come and talk to me?"

Day 1.2 : Whoever admits first lose

It been hours and I started to accept the fact that I scare him off for good.

I started to regret it. Why did I even confess? All this while we re just fine being the way we are. I should have just listen to the other me. Now I've lost a friend.  A very important one...and it's all my fault.

I put my phone away, trying to let go. This one sided feeling is not going to get me anywhere anyway. So, this is for the best. For him. And for me.

But at that very moment, my phone rings for incoming text. Right at that very moment when I almost give up.

I feel complicated. I am happy he replied, which means there's still a slim chance for me to continue be his friend. I am mad because I waited for almost three hours before I received his reply. I feel in agony because I don't know what did he replied.

It took me quite some time before I finally read the text he replied. Nervously, I click view.

After I finish reading the text, a sense of furiousness rage in me. I slammed my phone on the bed. That idiot... He is getting on my nerves. Oh, the stress!!

What he replied wasn't a yes/no answer. It was in fact something you wouldn't take notice of in the text. I re-read what I send to him. I only mention I like him, I didn't even asked him to be my boyfriend. Why is it that hard to understand what I said?! Seriously?!!

After I calmed down a little, I try to explain what I meant in the text. He replied me with a "Haha..." So, you laughed at my confession now? Wow... I'm so furious. If he was actually right before my eyes, I might slap him in the face. For that.

I don't know what to say. He didn't really answer the main thing in the confession. So, we are good to continue be each other "bitches" now...?

At the thought of this, I sighed of relieved. Atleast we are still friends, right?

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Now that I think about it there was once when we engaged in our first quarrel. It was quite intense if I remember it correctly. And extremely bizarre.

It happen during the mid period of my Form 4 highschool life and I still went for tuition at the same place. Needless to mention, he is here too.

The Form 4 highschool life is consider as the peak year for us student in Malaysia. Its the year when we started to learn and cope with more subjects that will link to our range of study in the future, prepare ourselves for the final in senior year and also achieve better pointer for our co-curricular activity. Its the start of hell for us students in short...

So, back to the story. On one evening while I was relaxing at the counter, Aunty Keroro who was in charge of the tuition center suddenly barges in and told me,"Hey, your class has been delayed. Something urgent came up, your teacher will be late."

I just nodded. Not that I care about it since almost everyday after school I would come here straightaway, so it doesn't make much difference for me. Aunty Keroro left and not long after that, a person come rushing in and straight into class.

I was in a moment of confusion. Why would anyone rush here today? I thought I just heard the class got delayed. And who was it by the way?

The person came out and sit himself before me. Oh! Rillakuma.. He is panting heavily. Did he ran here?

I haven't even say a thing and he started questioning me.

"Where are the others?"
"Not here yet."
"Huh? Why?"
"Because... The class just got delayed?"

At this, he blew up. He scold me for it. I was shocked. For the first time ever he scold me and the problem wasn't even my fault to begin with.

I scold him back. Even I, myself just knew that class got delayed, how would I know that you did rushed here at a time like this?! But whatever your reason is, I don't think I deserved to be scolded like this.

Rillakuma seems dissatisfied after I scold him back. He just sits there and keep his mouth shut. But his face showed how annoyed he is. Now, I'm the one feeling annoyed.

You came in here and you scold me. So, you are that angry at me, why would you still sit in front of me?! Trying to annoy me to death now?

Uhh! If only he was a plushie, I would have strangled and hit him to my heart content without hurting my own hands. Oh! I am so, so pissed because of him that time!

Despite being all that angry at him, I was actually sort of pity at him at the same time too. I mean he did came rushing in here just now. He must have just came back from some school activities, feeling all tired and still rushed here to be on time for tuition but in the end, when he did reached here, class has been delayed.

So, of course he is angry. Maybe I shouldn't have scolded him like that just now. But nah...no matter what's your reason, I still don't deserved to be scolded like that either!

I ignored him and play with my phone. I couldn't concentrate on my game and keep crashing and losing. Oh, what's wrong with me now?

Class starts shortly after the teacher has reached. We didn't talked at all during class. I know we are being so childish. But we just don't want to admit it to each other yet. Whoever admits first lose!

During our five minutes break, I sit at the counter again, this time trying to relax for a bit. And Rillakuma came sitting in front of me again. For some reason, I forgot that I am angry at him and naturally I talked to him like nothing happen.

He was surprised I think. Maybe he didn't expect I would still talk to him after what had happened. Actually I don't remember why I started talking to him again either.

Before we enter class, he said something quickly and went straight into class after that. I didn't quite hear what he said, but I think he just apologize for being an asshole.

So, that's it. Our first quarrel. A bizarre one but good thing we somewhat made up with each other. But it is damn funny everytime I think about it again.

I don't remember if I said this before and I don't know if he will read this. So, if you are reading this,

"Sorry, I didn't apologize to you at that time.  And sorry again for being such a bitch on your bad day eventhough you are the reason I turned into a bitch that day...I'm sorry, Baka Rillakuma. I mean it."

Day 1.1 : I guess I did hope him to reply my text...

I stare at my phone next to me.

"Should I send it?" I thought to myself over and over again. It was quite a dilemma. One part of me says, "You need to tell him!"; another part says, "No! Stop!! You will scare him away! You don't want to lose him like this!"

Ugh! It is so frustrating. I want all this to end soon. I look at the time on my phone. 8.14 a.m. Oh my god! Why am I even awake so early on a Sunday? I seriously need to end this...

I end up sitting there, staring at my phone again... Well, you never know if you never try, right? So after gathering much courage, I finally picked up the phone and start typing a text. A long one.

I don't dare to expect anything, so I just click send before I started to change my mind about it. I waited for the reply. One minute, two minutes.

After around 15 minutes of waiting, I realize he is not going to reply any time soon. I expected it to be that way... But still, one part of me felt disappointed.

I guess I did hope him to reply my text. But right now it seems pointless... Maybe I really did scare him away.

Feeling a little down, I slowly get out of bed and head to the bathroom to freshen up myself. I look at the mirror and tried to make a smile on my face but it won't work. Not on me today.

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Why did I became like this? Or should I say since when did I started becoming like this?

I sat down and started to think about it. About him...

My name is Hello Kitty. The tall, awkward and cheeky Chinese girl. I made friends with almost everybody. And one of them is him, Rillakuma.

Rillakuma is tall but not exactly consider tall for a guy because he is almost the same height with me if we stand together. Maybe slightly taller. I don't know.

He has tanned skin. Hmm... Why wouldn't he? He is a pure blooded Malay guy after all. He is quiet from the outside but extremely psychotic from the inside. Well, I can say I knew him long enough to know this much.

My first encounter with him wasn't really all that pleasant. It was in fact a little scary, atleast from my perspective.

Back then, Rillakuma is really weird. You know in tuition classes, there's always alot of place for you to sit in and this guy, he always sits at the same spot at the corner. Its like that spot says, "Rillakuma's spot! Stay out!"

But thats not the only reason why I consider him as weird. Rillakuma has this thing around him. Its like a shield against the strangers or people that he don't know. It seems more like a dark aura chasing people away to me though. I remember I used to tell myself, "Let's not talk to him unless necessary."

I guessed its pointless telling myself that. We have the same range of friends in the class and I knew up to some point, maybe one of us will start talking to the other person. And it did happen.

On one of my peaceful day at tuition, I felt it as if someone was staring at me and more importantly, I thought he was staring at me. "Nah!! I'm just imagining things.." I said to myself.

I thought I might as well assure myself about it so I secretly take a glimpse at him and our eyes met for a split second. I look away, trying to hide the fact that I sneak a peek at him and continue talking with my tuition friends. And then another friend call out for me.

"Hey, Kitty. He wants to talk to you."
"Who?" I asked, feeling puzzled at the moment. My friend points out at him and my eyes widened.

Rillakuma look at me and smile. Being still in shocked mood, the only thing I manage to do is smile too. And then he start talking, "Hey, you are... Right? I heard..... That you... "

I couldn't quite hear what he said as we are sitting quite far away from each other. Maybe he figures that out too when I just stare at him being so confused. And then it happen.

That guy actually stood up from his spot and walk all the way to sit in front of me. I was stunned. It was really funny though now that I remember it again. My inner thoughts at that moment was literally having some serious conversation.

"Oh my god.. Why is he sitting in front of me?!"
"He just wanted to talk, calm down.."
"About what? I don't remember we have anything in common to talk about..."
"Just calm down for god sake!! Its not like he's going to eat you up!"
"Did I do something wrong? Seriously why would he want to talk to me?!"

As my inner thoughts run wild thinking about useless things, the only thing I manage to blurt out is...

"Hi.."

Oh damn! That was awkward...

Rillakuma laughed a little and said,"Haha... Hi. We never talked with each other before, huh?"

I nodded a little and said,"So, what was it that you wanted to talk to me again?"

"Oh that," he says,"I was just asking is it true you like drawing too? Because I heard from Keropi that you draw.."

As he stare at me with those bright excited eyes, how could I say no. So, I slightly avert my eyes and nodded twice.

His face instantly glow up. Excitedly he said,"Really?! Then next time if you have anything about drawing and can you let me see it?"

"Sure."

"Awesome! Sorry if I scare you, it really rare to find friend who draw so I was really excited when I knew you draw too. So yay! Next time can share opinion with each other," he continues.

So, that's how we started talking to each other. And he wasn't that scary after all. I think I can get along well being his art friend. :)